I’m plessed

I’ts been a long time & a lot has happened

I’m plessed at last with two little sweet baby boys Muhammed & Abd El-Rahman (twins)

it’s been a long journey & I passed through a hard time but Alhamdulellah the result was much more than I expected

Addicted to blogs :)

In my last post, brother Abu Shajj said:

I have noticed… you have alot of blogs I have counted about 3.

I used to have many blogs not only 3 , I been addicted to bloging since I discoverd it & wanted to find a service that satisfy me, so I tried most the known bloging services, but that doesn’t mean that I got a brilliant mind, it’s just thoughts in my mind, and because I don’t have someone to talk to (except my husband who doesn’t like to waste his time to listen to my stupid thoughts ).
Now I stopped bloging in most of them even the one that targeted ladies (just two days ago I ended it as ladies were not interested), but I just keep them as they’re mine & to remember that experience.
I’m now bloging in the arabic one (Indifferent space) because it’s an indifferent Self-criticism for the Egyptian community & here where it’ll be my gate to the Islamic world & In shaa Allah I’ll keep updating.

Also Abu Shajj asked:

How do you keep up with it all.

Well, I don’t have anything to do in my life except taking care of my home & husband (I don’t have much to do cuz there’s no babies) & I don’t have a job anymore.
And my husband gave me my own pc ( which isn’t usual in here) just because I like to discover new things & ofcourse I won’t bother him when he’s using his pc too
Alhamdulellah, I still find something to talk about & sometimes I feel that I’m talking nonesense cuz I’m not following the news all the time, I don’t have an orgnized mind & I don’t have a good way to express my thoughts, still trying to solve this problem.

thank you brother Abu Shajj.

Wanna Talk Loud

Well..
I been emotional in my last post…
I have to explain that.
I’m a muslim, yet not a good one, my life been a mess for while, though it was a good one in the begining.
Here I should point to my husband, as hemessed in his life a lot too & yet he’s not a good muslim either, he been in the US in his chiledhood & later when he had his masters from there.
After getting married, I felt the need to find my way, I felt lost & confused about my life, I couldn’t decide what I’m gonna be, I left my work & I’m a house-wife now, don’t have kids, don’t have an aim for my life (that’s what i feel).
Egypt is a muslim country, but I hate to go out to the streets, as I see many muslim girls acting badly,,, really badly, sometimes I feel that I don’t belong to this society.
I had a lot of blogs,, everyone has an aim, one was to show the world that arabs aren’t that bad,, one was in arabic aiming the muslim girls in egypt & the arab world, as they were effected too much with the western ideals,, without having a prepared brains to think about it in the right way, & this one was for feminin purposes,, which is gonna change now.
I been searching for people who’re linking to my blogs, I found Wa Salaam blog, where I started to discover more, then I found Izzy Mo’s Blog & many more where I felt that I found my way,, in fact my way been in front of me I thought about it a lot,, but I didn’t find any encouragement.
Later , I decided to do all the prayers as i used in the past, surprisely my husband seems to feel that too when i told him that i need to pray & never forget about one prayer,, I found him started to pray too!!! unexpected to me,, thought we used to talk about Islam & discuss a lot about it but our devil (Shitan) was stronger than us.

I’d love to talk & talk & talk,, but I won’t be able to tell you how much I appreciate every single word I read in your blogs, ( I mean muslim blogs around the world ), even if my english hepled me, I guess words won’t be able to show you how much I’m happy to find you & how much you’ll help me to save my life.
I just wish that I can be a little stronger like you & ask Allah al-thabat (I don’t know it’s meaning in english).

 

The image belongs to Mumin Designs , it says Alhamdulillah (Thnks God) repeated in a very artirstc way

Blog addiction!!!!

Blogging became an addiction, that’s what i discovered lately, I’ve been away for a while to visit my parents,, I felt that there’s something is missing. When I returned back the first thing I thought about was turning on my pc & blogging again!!!!
I did my best not to get closer to my pc till the next day which is today… I tried to find a nice subject to talk about but I didn’t find any in my mind.
It’s even worst now,,, it’s easy for me to express my thoughts through blogging, but not anymore in real life, I’m registered to most of the sites that increases traffic to my blogs & I can’t get enough, I have 3 blogs now…. Wooooww